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Well, my quarterly review didn't go so well, fellow newcomers. [Wearied, tired, bitter- that's the least of flatlined emotion from Dr. Yumeno here] This is probably a delayed little anecdote to add to the pile, but since we've all been sharing our hardships...
Despite everything, and despite Dr. Pyke fully believing the plight of our little community, that bouncing to and fro between centuries is nothing we can control, un-notified absences are still technically grounds for termination, the hospital board is still angry I haven't been axed years ago...amazing, to hear it all come up now, all that had been swept beneath the rug, but apparently they were so glad to have grovelling hands in back at work for the past two weeks, that it caught me completely off guard- this "we'll talk about it later" actually pulling through.
Another pay cut, and a week's absence apparently swallows the whole of my unused vacation time, backwards and forwards till the summer. It's still a (modified) resident doctor's salary, despite more little nips and tucks made to my job title, so a newcomer shouldn't be dissatisfied. But I'm actually quite tired with fighting to advance my career. I'm tired with trying to reform the health protocols. Whatever respect of tenure I've earned in the past two and a half years has been spent three times over, and rides very thinly on credit.
Many, too many coworkers have given me the cold shoulder. I thought it was just my imagination, at first, but now I know without a doubt- they've said I keep spoiling this good hospital's reputation. It's remarkable, how the opinions of intelligent, rational peers can change to cold and resentful overnight - or with a week's disappearance excused by the unending grace of your Chief Director.
I could have lived with that, once, being a social pariah at work, if I hadn't been under the impression I've been making progress for so long now. I wouldn't have cared less, once.... [There's a soft sound, rueful, and a defeatist laugh] but I've grown much too used to being liked.
An interesting thing this whole ordeal has taught me: Maybe I've become too accustomed to the habits of this day and age.
I'm taking the weekend to downsize a bit... Throw some things away. There's too much clutter of mine, here, and I wouldn't want to leave a pile of waste and sensitive information where I've been, should we all be so inconveniencing as to vanish from this world again .
Despite everything, and despite Dr. Pyke fully believing the plight of our little community, that bouncing to and fro between centuries is nothing we can control, un-notified absences are still technically grounds for termination, the hospital board is still angry I haven't been axed years ago...amazing, to hear it all come up now, all that had been swept beneath the rug, but apparently they were so glad to have grovelling hands in back at work for the past two weeks, that it caught me completely off guard- this "we'll talk about it later" actually pulling through.
Another pay cut, and a week's absence apparently swallows the whole of my unused vacation time, backwards and forwards till the summer. It's still a (modified) resident doctor's salary, despite more little nips and tucks made to my job title, so a newcomer shouldn't be dissatisfied. But I'm actually quite tired with fighting to advance my career. I'm tired with trying to reform the health protocols. Whatever respect of tenure I've earned in the past two and a half years has been spent three times over, and rides very thinly on credit.
Many, too many coworkers have given me the cold shoulder. I thought it was just my imagination, at first, but now I know without a doubt- they've said I keep spoiling this good hospital's reputation. It's remarkable, how the opinions of intelligent, rational peers can change to cold and resentful overnight - or with a week's disappearance excused by the unending grace of your Chief Director.
I could have lived with that, once, being a social pariah at work, if I hadn't been under the impression I've been making progress for so long now. I wouldn't have cared less, once.... [There's a soft sound, rueful, and a defeatist laugh] but I've grown much too used to being liked.
An interesting thing this whole ordeal has taught me: Maybe I've become too accustomed to the habits of this day and age.
I'm taking the weekend to downsize a bit... Throw some things away. There's too much clutter of mine, here, and I wouldn't want to leave a pile of waste and sensitive information where I've been, should we all be so inconveniencing as to vanish from this world again .