11 - video & text;
July 13th, 2012 09:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
[ There is little audio in the background of her post to indicate that the post has come up at all; in the quiet breaks between jobs, her surroundings are ominous rainclouds and grey brick as she sits perched in the rusty emergency stairs of an apartment block. It's in these short times that she allows herself to think, and on this occasion, remember that she, too, has a voice on the network. ]
In this place, some of us are far away from the people we were raised by. Our parents and friends. Some of you may be reunited in this world, or separated again. Some of you may only be connected by a common friend of the same world.
[ Friends have left the port not long after she finally found her comfort in them and the term friends. There were those, too, that came from her homeworld but proved to be more causes of friction and annoyance than anything resembling an amiable bond. Yet they still gave a sense of familiarity that, to her, could have been as comforting as seeing her own world again. As though swallowing a lump in her throat, she pauses, gaze lowered by a few degrees, before continuing. Discussions are not her strong suit. ]
I was separated from my father soon after being reunited in this place-- nearly a year since we had last seen one another. Now, two years. I can feel the distance of the worlds between us. But...
[ But the emotions that envelop and burn around all mention of her father, those that motivate her to protect him and to jump at the bare mention of his name, won't let themselves be shown. Her eyes are as steady as ever, barely betraying this trailing-off, this uncertainty in what to say next. It's like a wave of self-doubt and camera-shyness has overtaken her, before she seems to pick up again as though that pause had never happened. She does have a request to make, after all, and inclines her head slightly before making it. ]
I do not mourn his parting from me, as he is not gone. He does not miss me as I do, but I still miss him.
So, please tell me about your families. What you remember of them. What you feel at this distance as you miss them. Whether you are missed too.
[ Despite such a straightforward question, she has still opted to deliberately turn the video function on. Firstly, to show the more recent arrivals her face. Secondly-- to draw out those who knew her father, or sees their connection in her resemblance to him. Her eyes remain fixed on the feed a while longer, unblinking, before she leans to switch it off and shuts her eyes in a small, careful motion. ]
In this place, some of us are far away from the people we were raised by. Our parents and friends. Some of you may be reunited in this world, or separated again. Some of you may only be connected by a common friend of the same world.
[ Friends have left the port not long after she finally found her comfort in them and the term friends. There were those, too, that came from her homeworld but proved to be more causes of friction and annoyance than anything resembling an amiable bond. Yet they still gave a sense of familiarity that, to her, could have been as comforting as seeing her own world again. As though swallowing a lump in her throat, she pauses, gaze lowered by a few degrees, before continuing. Discussions are not her strong suit. ]
I was separated from my father soon after being reunited in this place-- nearly a year since we had last seen one another. Now, two years. I can feel the distance of the worlds between us. But...
[ But the emotions that envelop and burn around all mention of her father, those that motivate her to protect him and to jump at the bare mention of his name, won't let themselves be shown. Her eyes are as steady as ever, barely betraying this trailing-off, this uncertainty in what to say next. It's like a wave of self-doubt and camera-shyness has overtaken her, before she seems to pick up again as though that pause had never happened. She does have a request to make, after all, and inclines her head slightly before making it. ]
I do not mourn his parting from me, as he is not gone. He does not miss me as I do, but I still miss him.
So, please tell me about your families. What you remember of them. What you feel at this distance as you miss them. Whether you are missed too.
[ Despite such a straightforward question, she has still opted to deliberately turn the video function on. Firstly, to show the more recent arrivals her face. Secondly-- to draw out those who knew her father, or sees their connection in her resemblance to him. Her eyes remain fixed on the feed a while longer, unblinking, before she leans to switch it off and shuts her eyes in a small, careful motion. ]