six ;; voice

[thequarterback]

[No video this time. Voice only. He wasn't even going to bother with that. This was originally text, but he feels confident enough right now to speak. Video is just out of the question though. There's no chance of that right now]

I just have one question, you know, something I've been sorta wondering about. [He's trying to keep his voice steady and his tone light, but he can't seem to really bring much life to it] Go ahead and ignore me if this is too personal or whatever, but how do you deal with death? [He pauses] I mean, there's been that stuff on the news about vampire attacks and people dying and everything. So it just got me thinking, I guess. [That's not how he started thinking about it at all] I mean, I, uh, I never really lost anyone close to me before, at least not anyone I remember. 

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[private, text]

[mediumdrip]

I know you don't like me and that this is a stupid question, but I want you to know that I'm worried about you:

Are you okay, Finn?

[private, text]

[thequarterback]

who cares how i feel about you? my girlfriend got killed last night.

im fine

[Shockingly easy to lie through a text]

[mediumdrip]

My point is that I'm probably the last person you want to offer to help you.

But she's my friend. One of my best friends. She'd want me to be here for you and I want to be too. If there's anything I can do even if it's just picking up some food so you don't have to worry about getting dinner or being someone you can talk to if you need to.


Did Kurt tell you what happened to us before?

[thequarterback]

look i appreciate it but i said im fine. i can handle it.


yeah. kurt told me

[mediumdrip]

It doesn't help right now, but this might not the end.

She could come back.

[thequarterback]

youre right. it doesnt.

she could come back but she could also stay dead

[mediumdrip]

She'll still be okay back home.

She has to be.

[thequarterback]

[He knows this sounds really selfish but:]

that doesnt really help me here

[mediumdrip]

I'm sorry.

That's why if there's anything I can do, all you have to do is ask.

[thequarterback]

then tell me what im supposed to do

[mediumdrip]

Survive.

The last thing she would want is for you to get hurt too.

[thequarterback]

everyones been telling me that

[More or less]

it hasnt been helping

[mediumdrip]

I don't know if anything really will.

I'm sorry. I wish I could tell you something that would help, but this is going to keep hurting.

I think we both just have to remember that she's in our lives and hearts and try to take this one day at a time.

[thequarterback]

i miss her blaine

[mediumdrip]

I know, Finn.

I do too, but I can imagine how you're feeling is so much worse.

[thequarterback]

i cant deal with this place without her

[mediumdrip]

I know for a fact that you are stronger than you think you are. Right now you have to be strong the way she'd want you to be too.

[thequarterback]

im trying but its harder than i thought it would be

[mediumdrip]

You know, when Kurt died, it happened right in front of me. I saw it happen to him and I couldn't stop it. But at least I didn't have to figure out how to live without him. The next day we were together again.

I think if anyone can do it, you can. You're the leader, remember? You keep everyone together. I think you can find it in you to keep yourself together too.

And if you can't, you have people here who care about you who will do whatever they can to help glue the pieces back.

[thequarterback]

i cant do it this time though. maybe i never could

[mediumdrip]

Then the people who love you will help you.

[thequarterback]

and the people who love me are going through the same thing i am

[mediumdrip]

So you can go through it together. There's strength in numbers.

[thequarterback]

it just seems like wed be feeding each others misery or whatever then

[mediumdrip]

It doesn't have to be like that. It could be a support system. You could hold each other up.