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So.

[ He's speaking a little slowly, the bitterness properly enunciated in the slight tipsy slur to his voice. ]

… You know. I wasn't going to think anything of it, I have way better things to be working on and thinking about, but the more I think about it the more it's really burning me up. I mean, I really wasn't going to think anything of it but then--

[ He clicks his tongue and pauses to take another sip of whatever he's drinking. ]

I think that's really great. Really. My dad never remembered my birthday and he always blamed it on the leap year, but -- but my birthday's the twenty-eighth, that's just bullshit, right? I -- I, um -- it's so stupid, I don't even know if they remember either because I'm pretty sure I'm supposed to be dead--

[ There's a clink as something breaks, and apparently spills as well. ]

Oopsie. What was I saying? Oh -- no, the worst part is I forgot about my birthday too! [ He laughs a little, quiet and forced and slightly whimpery. ] Usually Liz says it to me in the morning, but…

'm not sure what I'm trying to say actually. I'm just giving myself a headache.

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[ she can just feel her stomach sinking as he speaks. further down and down and at the last part. she has a feeling she knows exactly what happened. ]

Something... bad...?

[ He's sweating a little. He nods slowly. ]

[ playing with her hair again nervously... ]

So -- so then what happened?

[ Harry shakes his head, hesitating. ]

I-- I didn't. I didn't do it.

That's -- that's good. That's really good.

[ a pause ]

Are you sure you want to tell me this?

[ He shakes his head. ]

No. But here we are anyway.

[ an awkward little noise and a beat ]

So how does that... add to Peter thinking this is a bad thing?

[ Harry crosses his arms, sitting back. ]

He'll think I'm -- you know.

That you're trying to --

No!

[ Looks at her sadly. ]

Trust me.

If I could just explain it to him, I'm sure he'd understand!

No. Promise me you won't say anything.

Okay, okay, I promise. I won't say anything. I won't mention it to him.

Good. [ He rubs his eyes, and sighs. ] Good... look, I'm really sorry.

Why would you even need to be?

I shouldn't have said anything.

Harry, it's fine. I'm glad you told me -- it means you trust me. Enough to tell me something like that and ask me for help.

[ pulling at the bottom of her shirt ]

I'm grateful for that, okay?

[ He nods a little. ]

If you're sure.

I am sure. You trust me, right? So believe me.

Just, you know, I don't want you thinking less of me. You probably do already.

What the heck, Harry!?

What?

Why would you assume something like that about me?! I haven't said anything that could even give you that idea!

Because--

[ He rubs his temple. ]

I just told you I tried to kill someone!

And you were on drugs and in a bad state of mind and you didn't! Thanks for the confidence in me!

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