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[whycantistay]

[When the feed comes on, Fred isn't really looking at it. The sun is setting and she looks sick. Wiping away traces of blood from her mouth she finally speaks.]

Wesley? I think-- [Things have mostly come back. She was here. She was definitely here before. For months. And-- and Connor. She had her memories of Connor replaced here. Angel and Angelus. And Lucifer. Her eyes go wide.]

Angel? Angel are you still here? [Oh God, she'd died. She remembered the pain and the blood and her body was so broken. Her hand moves to her mouth in shock.]

Chuck. Oh God, please. Someone tell me if Chuck is okay. [She swallows. So much had happened.]

And Lucifer. The vampires. I-- remember. I was here and I died. And I loved someone. I remember it. But I went home and-- [And she's going to die. Her eyes fall down and she just can't deal with all of this. The last shot before it turns black is a second or so of tears starting to fall.]

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[paterelohim]

Where are you?

[Called from across the room. He's getting on his coat and shoes already.]

Fred.

[He actually does a passable job of hiding the OH MY GOD ALKSJDGH factor in his voice.]

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[whycantistay]

[She swallows hard, the feed shaking still.] Chuck.

[She tries to stand, but her body is weak.] I'm about a block from the baseball diamond.

I'm-- Chuck, I'm dying.

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[paterelohim]

What? No you're not.

[That would be Chuck spazzing so hard he threw an elbow into the floor lamp, nbd he's fine.]

I'm coming to get you. Everything's gonna be okay.

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[whycantistay]

[She's too tired to fight. Last thing she remembers is having a seizure in Wesley's arms.]

I'll be here.

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[paterelohim]

[He doesn't mean to sound like a jackass, but it's a kneejerk reaction. Bull-fucking-shit she's dying, not on his watch. Not again, no. The tension is clear in his jaw and a wildness in his eyes when he picks up the NV.]

I'm coming. Just hold on.

[He picks it up and starts moving the hell out, running down the stairs two at a time. Fuck all this up in here.]

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[thelightbringer]

[And Lucifer.

He's silently mulling that over for over an hour before he replies.]

You remember what happened?

Where are you?

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[whycantistay]

[She still looks really tired.] Yes. Angelus attacked. I went back home.

I'm with Chuck. Are you okay? [She's more worried about him than actually dying. He didn't mean it. It doesn't absolve him, but she wants to talk to him.]

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[thelightbringer]

[He can tell she isn't alright, and has to shove aside the sense of helplessness he'd had when he'd tried to resurrect her.]

Your body didn't heal?

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[whycantistay]

I'm dying. Back home. It wasn't you. [She tries to give a reassuring smile. Like an adult telling a child that everything is alright, even when it isn't.]

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[thelightbringer]

We can heal you. [Can't we?] I can't get to you, but maybe Michael-

What happened at home?

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[slipperysoul]

[ there's a long silence before just -- ] Fred?

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[whycantistay]

[This comes a few hours later. She doesn't look so demon god hollowing her out to use as a shell.] Hey.

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[slipperysoul]

[ Which is why he's just staring. For probably longer than is appropriate, but you try dealing with Illyria. ] You're still you.

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[whycantistay]

Yes... [She's not entirely sure what that means.]

I coughed up some blood back home. But I'm okay. Lucifer healed me. [Except not. Illyria is still in her.]

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[slipperysoul]

You're sure? [ Yeah, he's not convinced. ]

[inthejunk]

Woah...are you alright?

[whycantistay]

I'll be fine.

[inthejunk]

Are you sure? Because that seemed kind of-uh. Not. Fine. You know?

Do you need some help?

[whycantistay]

Someone is coming. But thank you.

[inthejunk]

Oh...alright.

I mean. I mean, you can call back if you change your mind, okay? I'm a greeter so it's totally my job to help you, alright? Just so you know!

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[classdismissed]

Fred?!

[He was more than a little pissed before she died, but that's forgotten about right now.]\

What the hell happened to you?

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[whycantistay]

I went back home. Are you okay, Griffin?

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[classdismissed]

No shit. I went home too, I didn't come back looking like a bloody hot mess.

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[whycantistay]

I just-- I just need to see Lucifer and I'll be fine.

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[classdismissed]

I'm pretty sure anything with you needing to see Satan doesn't end with you being fine.