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[Anyone familiar with Souji Seta's apartment will recognize where Yosuke is immediately. He's sitting on the bed, which is unmade in a way it never would be if Souji had anything to say about it. There are cups of tea sitting around too, abandoned and forgotten. For all of that, Yosuke doesn't seem relaxed or well-rested. He just looks a little mussed and out of it.]

I'unno 'f anyone. Uh. Who needsta know. But somebody...he had a job. So-so, 'f you worked with him he's not playin' hooky, alright? I waited t' make sure. A while. Long time. 'Cause he wasn't answering, so I-um.

Anyway, 'm doin' this wrong. I just mean-um. Mean that Souji Seta is gone. Is all. So, please excuse him from work.

[Sorry, Portians. He's usually friendler, really. It's just been a bad month. Wake him up when September ends?]

(OoC: For people who don't know, Souji Seta is Yosuke's canon best friend and was his sole cast mate. Who also made the mistake of giving him a bottle of vodka to celebrate his 17th birthday. Whoops.)

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[Nill follows, naturally, never letting them get more than a foot or two away from her. She's not being left here while they take him to the hospital.

But... Nill stops a little, and stares up at the medic, at a loss for what to tell them. It takes a minute for her to gather a proper train of thought, but she has the time because the elevator is slow.]

It's A. I don't know of any allergies.

He didn't try to kill himself.

[He wouldn't do that. He'd know that if he did, she'd be the one to find him, and he wouldn't do that to her. If he would then-- why hadn't she--?

It was ridiculous to think that Yosuke would do that. They were wrong.]

[The chatty medic holds the elevator door for Nill, but only for a second. The other one is busy keeping Yosuke's respirations going. She stops after a moment, though, and starts to frantically unstrap Yosuke.]

Roll him!

[They do, and more liquid dribbles out of his mouth and nose, which the medic clears manually for him before they strap him back in again. The elevator dings, and they step out into the lobby. There are flashing lights out the front window-the ambulance.]

What's the history of his eating disorder, and the self mutilation? The more you can tell us, the easier it will be to help him. There are track marks in his left arm. Is he a junkie? We need to know so we can help him.

Edited 2012-09-26 04:45 (UTC)

[It's horrible. Almost as bad as watching Allen bleed out, but slightly worse, because at least then she could do something, and with this she can only watch. Her chest feels constricted and she can't tell if it's hard to breathe or if she's imagining it.

For a moment though, as the medic talks, the world goes red. They had it wrong, so wrong, everything was wrong, first they thought he tried to kill himself and now they thought he was a junkie and that he hurt himself and they were idiots. THEY WERE ALL MORONS.

Nill has to take a few deep breaths to calm herself, to get her breathing back to a somewhat normal level instead of the shallow little spikes it'd been a moment ago.]

He was involved in the second hunt that went on awhile ago. He didn't do that to himself. He isn't a junkie. He can't eat when he's stressed.

[For the millionth time in her life, Nill wishes she could scream.]

Sweetheart, covering up for him isn't going to help him now.

[That's the female medic, who has remained mostly silent until now. Her partner rolls his eyes a bit, though after they load Yosuke into the ambulance he does motion Nill to hop in.]

What hunt is that? Is he a bounty hunter? He sure doesn't look like a bounty hunter to me. Are you sure he was telling you the truth? What kind of stress is a kid like that under? Those are $400 shoes he's wearing, you know. So you might as well tell me the truth. Does he do drugs? Sell drugs? Sell himself? Or is he just a rich kid acting out? Did his girlfriend dump him? His boyfriend? Psych will need to know these things.

[Nill's wings flare out behind her, and she looks completely livid. Of course they were natives. Of course they didn't know, and of course they were saying things like that, because all of them assumed that Newcomers were just the scum of the earth, even though they actually treated people decently.

Fuck all of these people.]

Just shut up and help him.

Edited 2012-09-26 06:03 (UTC)

[The medic reads the screen, but he doesn't look especially shocked or impressed by the words on it. The siren blares, and the ambulance pulls out into the street.]

We're doing all we can for him without the rest of the story. But he might need charcoal or dialysis or an injection to his heart if there's something you haven't told-

[And then, the monitor that the first medic had just finished hooking Yosuke up to makes a sudden cacophony. The first medic curses.]

This part isn't pretty, you'll want to look away and count to a hundred.

Edited 2012-09-26 06:12 (UTC)

[Yet again, she wants to scream. She's honestly tempted to stop time, but even if she did, it's not like she could do anything.

Charcoal? She doesn't understand. An injection to his heart? It was alcohol! The problem was in his stomach!!

Nill watches Yosuke, and then looks up at the medic long enough to glare him.

You, dear medic, can go fuck yourself.

Nill steels herself, and she watches, because it's not like there aren't already a million terrible images in her head anyway.]

[They would normally lock her out of the room, but seeing how it's an ambulance, there's no time to waste on convincing her she doesn't want to see it. Instead they start by injecting something, cutting the rest of his clothes off, attaching more monitors of some sort, and then administering CPR.

Something snaps loudly in Yosuke's chest, but his eyes open again for a moment. It's clearly a reflex, but the medics check the monitors again and seem relieved. There's an obvious and humiliating -if he were conscious anyway- wet spot in the blankets now, and Yosuke jerks again, prompting another rolling and clearing of his airways after the liquid leaks out. The process is repeated a few times, which the female medic is thinking to herself is a good thing, but the male seems to think is a bad sign.

When it's over, they get Yosuke settled again and pick his respiration back up again. They're only a few blocks away, now, and traveling quickly. Medic 2 radios in again to let the hospital know they'll be there in under two minutes, and that the patient arrested once during transport, and they'll want to have a code team ready.]

Edited (tiny phone keys :c) 2012-09-26 08:03 (UTC)

[So that's what it looks like when someone's heart stops.

Nill watches in silence, though her breathing has picked up again to that shallow, fast rate, and the whole inside of the ambulance looks grey. She feels ill and shaky, even though she's still angry, still terrified. Nothing feels right, nothing is right, because if she had shown up even five minutes later, Yosuke would probably be dead.

A code team. What did that mean? They were both thinking different things. Did they even know what they were doing? Was his heart going to stop again?

This was a completely different kind of fear than the sort Nill had experienced in the past, and she doesn't know what to do with it, how to move. She's not sure she could move right now.

Two minutes felt like a life time.]

[On the very small scale of bright sides, Yosuke doesn't arrest again during the transport. They get him to the hospital and some doctors meet the ambulance out front, wheeling the gurney towards the hospital and firing off questions at Nill after the medics state Yosuke's condition and pass off the chart.]

He's 17? You're accepting billing? No known prior attempts? He's been in the city since last May? No allergies?

[She's not sure just how it is that she gets her limbs to move again - she's pretty sure she didn't send the signals for them to do so, at any rate - but somehow she stumbles out of the ambulance and follows after them.

She nods to all of the questions, because she can't argue at this point, and she's not sure she'd be able to operate her fingers enough to use the NV. It feels like such a waste of time to be worrying about things like that right now.]

[And then the first helpful person comes along. It's the nurse, from when Yosuke was in after the hunt. She takes one look at him and frowns, then glances at Nill and reaches to put a hand on her shoulder.]

I know him. That's not Seta Souji, his name is Yosuke. He has a prior, doctor. This young lady will help me find his chart.

[And she gives Nill's shoulder a little squeeze.]

C'mon, dear. Let's get you some tea while they admit your friend.

Edited 2012-10-02 00:56 (UTC)

[Oh, thank goodness. Nill recognizes the nurse immediately, and she's so glad that the nurse recognizes Yosuke. She sends the crew who wheeled Yosuke in an obvious glare (she told you so). She's reluctant to leave Yosuke, but chances are he's too far gone to even know she's there, and he's probably just going to keep getting worse before he gets better...

So, though she looks unhappy about it, Nill nods, even if she doesn't exactly look at nurse Sa'ida.]

Poor dear.

[It's not clear if she means Yosuke or Nill, but she leads Nill to the waiting room and makes good on her promise of tea, getting the hot water from a room off to the side. It's lavender, again.]

Is this related to what happened before? I've seen a few people come back in after those, and they're always bad the second time around too.

[She clucks her tongue, and holds the tea out for Nill.]

You've been brave for him, haven't you? It's alright. The doctors will take care of him now. Sit here and rest.

[Nill doesn't sit when they enter the room, instead holding her NV between her hands. Her knuckles are white, and she stands near the door, as if she isn't totally sure this is a good idea yet. She kind of wants to go back out, but she'd probably get in the way, or they'd make her leave.

Her grip finally loosens so she can take the cup of tea offered to her, and slowly Nill sinks into a chair in the room. She looks up at the nurse for a moment, before looking back down at the NV. She types up a message, finally (more slowly than usual), and holds it up for her to see.]

I told them he wasnt Souji

they didn't believe me

They get most of their information from the dispatchers. Someone must have told them the wrong thing.

[She shakes her head a bit, and rummages in a large file along the back wall. It's full of all the non-current admission from the fiscal year. It only takes her a few minutes to find the chart. Not even long enough for the tea to go cold.]

I'll take this to them and be right back.

[They should have believed her. The man that called them hadn't even seen Yosuke! He hadn't even come to check!

Nill looks into her tea cup while the nurse is busy, though she doesn't actually drink any for the moment. She looks up at her and nods - she wasn't going anywhere - but after she just looks down at the tea again.]

[Nurse Sa'ida returns about ten minutes later. Her lips are a bit thin, but otherwise she smiles pleasantly at Nill. In her head, she's worrying. About Yosuke, and all the others like him.

The kids who come in half dead and severely traumatized, and are released in pieces, back to a hostile environment. It's no wonder, she's thinking, they cycle through here in the same way all of the time. No one fixes the real problems, all they can do is patch up the wounds and mend the bones.

Nill is probably one of these kids too, she decides. Poor girl won't even speak to people anymore. And who can blame her? No one's listening anyway.

On the outside, she just smiles professionally, and nods to acknowledge Nill when she walks back in.]

It's going to be a little while before you can see him. But you got there in time. You did well.

[In the time that the nurse is gone, Nill sets her cup down on the table; as she pulls her hands back to herself, she stares at them, turning them over to look at her palms.

When she looks at her hands, she sees Shika; the time he'd protected her from the blast when the apartment building was destroyed, and he was bleeding everywhere and she'd needed to ask the network for help--

Nill had consulted the network five times in her time in the port, and it was rarely for good reasons.

Then it's her senpai, hearing the news, knowing he was gone, that he'd died and left them again and that this time he probably wasn't coming back.

Next she sees Dave, the sick boy in the hospital room who was just as miserable and alone on the inside as she was, and now he was gone too.

Then there's Allen, and she can actually see his blood on her hands, still smell it clinging to the air. He could have died that night.

And now Yosuke, too. The Yosuke that actually cared about her, the boy who had made it his mission to look after her, and if she'd been a minute slower, he wouldn't be here right now.

Sa'ida is still gone, and Nill brings her hands up and drops her face into them, letting out a shaky breath and trying very hard not to cry.

When was she going to be strong enough to keep situations like this from happening? When would she finally be able to protect people? Allen had said she'd saved him, but if she were stronger he wouldn't have needed saving in the first place.

Nill looks relatively normal when the nurse finally comes back, though her tea remains untouched.

For as much as Sa'ida was wrong about, she was also very right. It wouldn't matter if she had a voice, because no one would listen to her anyway. She could scream and it wouldn't make a difference.

Why did she even bother? People didn't listen; They didn't care. Sa'ida was proof enough of that. She didn't even realize Nill was mute.

Nill doesn't return the smile, but she nods her head in acknowledgment and then looks back down to her hands. It would have been better if she hadn't taken so long to find him. This - waiting to see him because he'd nearly died - wasn't doing well at all. It wasn't even close.

Shika... Shika, how did you do this for so long? It's all so pointless, and it never gets better.]

[The nurse hadn't been expecting Nill to smile anyway, and she wasn't too surprised to see the tea untouched. Nill was doing pretty good just by not openly freaking out, but then again, that often meant she probably needed someone to keep an eye on her. The quiet ones usually snapped the worst, if they were going to.

So, the nurse pulls out the chair at the desk and starts to work on some sort of paperwork while Nill waits.]

If you need anything, don't be afraid to ask.

[What? Did she think that Nill was trying to kill herself, too?

...Not that she hadn't thought about it. Not that she hadn't had a plan, a way to just stop for awhile and hopefully she wouldn't start up again, but she couldn't do that anymore. The plan was scrapped, and Nill was still here.

Maybe that meant she had already snapped, and there was just no helping her. She nods up at the nurse, but otherwise stays where she is. And she waits.]

[It's a long, quiet, miserable night with a lot of undrunk tea involved. But sometime right around sunrise, Yosuke is ready for visitors. Nill is given a room number, and shown upstairs by a tired looking intern.]

[Nill waves goodbye to nurse Sa'ida briefly before she's led away, but she doesn't even really check to see if the nurse waves back at her. She's too intent on getting to whatever room Yosuke is in.]

[The nurse definitely watches Nill go, but that's all they'll be hearing from her for the night. She's off duty in another hour, at long last.

Yosuke's room is semi-private, whether because of billing assuming generosity on Nill's part or because the cheap beds were full is difficult to say.

He's propped up on some pillows, with the bed elevated so he won't choke if he gets sick. Not that there's much of anything left anyway. The doctors were pretty thorough. He's conscious, but definitely not looking very healthy. His skin still has a slight blueish tint to it, in spite of all the blankets he's huddled under.

When Nill walks in, there's a spark of recognition and relief in his eyes, and he makes a weak attempt at sitting up for her that ends rather pathetically in failure. He grunts quietly from the exertion, and puts a hand up to his spinning head. Ow. Oof...

Still, Nill being there warrants a guilty but genuine smile.]

You stayed?

[Nill watches him quietly, looking - muteness aside - rather lost for words. It occurs to her that she should feel grateful that he's okay, but mostly she's still scared and upset. She crosses the room quickly when he tries to sit up though, gently pressing a hand to his chest. Now now, don't do that, just relax... Really, Yosuke.]

Of course I stayed.

[The words are softer than usual. Nill takes a seat in the chair for visitors.]

I wouldn't leave you.

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He owes her so bad for this...

He really, really does. :|

yeah...

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I NEVER REPLIED TO THIS? ...Wow, I seriously suck. Sorry!

No worries. <3

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