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[mediumdrip]

Kurt and i went to hospital together.

Now cant find him. so many people here. dont know where he is. tought hed be next me.

cant get up to look.

anyone seen him/



[ooc; Blaine is pretty bad, so all typos in post and comments are IC. Also, Blaine wouldn't be replying as quickly as I do, so there will be lots of notes about time stamps in subject lines. If you want to do some action threads for character you might be sick or tending the sick? Blaine's been put in quarantine and will be pretty sick, but I'm always up for action threads.]

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[showbizpanache]

I told you already, Blaine. You have to forgive yourself. That's the only way you can feel better.

[mediumdrip]

Do you forgive me?

[showbizpanache]

Of course I do. I've already said that, Blaine. I forgave you a long time ago.

[mediumdrip]

But I always make you sad.

[showbizpanache]

Sometimes you do. But you make me happy, too. That's how relationships work, Blaine. Bad things happen, but good things happen too--to keep things balanced.

[mediumdrip]

[Blaine turns a bit so that he can look up at Kurt.]

I... [he takes a deep breath] I love you so much.

[showbizpanache]

I love you too. That's why I'm here. I'm afraid I might lose you.

[mediumdrip]

Never.

You'll never lose me.

[showbizpanache]

I might if you don't overcome this.

People are dying from this illness, you know. [A pause.] I almost did.

[mediumdrip]

What happened?

[showbizpanache]

I'd rather not go into detail, not right now, but...someone helped me.

[He leans back against the wall, staring out the window thoughtfully.]

She showed me things. From my life. I faced my own guilt and overcame it the best I can. If I hadn't, I... [He shivers.] I'd probably be gone.

[mediumdrip]

[Blaine moves to put his arm around Kurt]

I can't lose you.

[showbizpanache]

Well, you almost did. That's why I'm telling you this-- So that I don't lose you.

[mediumdrip]

Why... why were you that guilty?

[showbizpanache]

[A long pause.] Lots of things.

[mediumdrip]

Tell me...

[showbizpanache]

I... [He swallows, shaking his head.] I've let many things--build up. I hid them away for so long, and I just...

[A sigh.] I blamed myself for so much. For everything, really. And I didn't even realize it, but...

I thought...

[mediumdrip]

You thought?

[showbizpanache]

However, briefly, I thought...

[He swallows.] I thought that it might be better if I wasn't...here. Alive.

[mediumdrip]

[Blaine looks distressed over that] What?

Why?

[showbizpanache]

I don't know.

Like I said, I didn't even realize I felt that way until she showed me.

[mediumdrip]

Kurt...

You are amazing and you've been so strong. Please... please if you feel that way again, talk to me.

[showbizpanache]

Well-- That's what I'm trying to say, Blaine. I fought those thoughts. I overcame them. And now you need to do the same, or you'll--

You'll die.

[mediumdrip]

I'm not going to. I need to be here with you.

[showbizpanache]

Then fight, Blaine. Please.