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Kurt and i went to hospital together.

Now cant find him. so many people here. dont know where he is. tought hed be next me.

cant get up to look.

anyone seen him/



[ooc; Blaine is pretty bad, so all typos in post and comments are IC. Also, Blaine wouldn't be replying as quickly as I do, so there will be lots of notes about time stamps in subject lines. If you want to do some action threads for character you might be sick or tending the sick? Blaine's been put in quarantine and will be pretty sick, but I'm always up for action threads.]

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[mediumdrip]

Next step?

[showbizpanache]

Moving on. Growing. Together.

[mediumdrip]

Yes... [He sighs] Kurt, I want to. I want to get passed this. Wanted to for so long, but...

[showbizpanache]

But?

[mediumdrip]

It makes me feel like I'm saying your suffering is something that I can just move on from. I can't.

[showbizpanache]

[He shakes his head.] I'm not telling you to forget anything that happened to us. I'm telling you to forgive yourself. Wounds get worse unless you treat them, Blaine.

[mediumdrip]

I want to. I just...

It's like Tim and I okay? We really did messed up stuff by letting the other get away with the drugs. I forgave him because I know that we'll never do anything like that again.

I have to know that... that we're not going to do the same stuff. Forgiving isn't just about saying "what I did is okay" it's,... [He starts coughing, because saying all of this is taking a lot out of him. He has to focus on breathing after, so hopefully Kurt waits for him to finish?]

It's saying, "I did something bad and I won't do it again."

[showbizpanache]

That's right. Making mistakes is all about learning, right? And I think we've both learned so much, especially from each other.

[mediumdrip]

I... I don't think I can survive making those mistakes again...

[showbizpanache]

[Softly.] Neither could I.

[mediumdrip]

[Blaine moves to take Kurt's hand.] No more then.

From now on.

[showbizpanache]

Promise.

[mediumdrip]

I promise too. [He sighs] I'm tired.

[showbizpanache]

Okay. Nap time.

[He gently pushes at Blaine's shoulders.] Lie down.

[mediumdrip]

[Blaine settles down] I mean... I'm tired of feeling so miserable. [He he also settles into for a nap easily, eyes closing, he doesn't fall asleep just yet though.]

[showbizpanache]

It'll pass, honey. [He kisses Blaine's forehead.] Everything does.

[mediumdrip]

No, Kurt... I mean...

[showbizpanache]

What?

[mediumdrip]

I don't want to feel like a bad person anymore.

I'm not. I made really bad choices, but I'm not.

[showbizpanache]

I know. I've always known that.

It's so wonderful to hear you say that, Blaine.

[mediumdrip]

Mmm.

Okay.

[showbizpanache]

[Another kiss.] Time to sleep.

[mediumdrip]

Maybe I'll feel better when I wake up.