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[ofthursday]

[When the NV turns on, it's clearly by accident; or, at the least, not intended to be on quite yet. It's aimed incorrectly as he presses buttons on it, giving glimpse of his shoulder and then the ceiling and then a blue eye, enough for people who have spoken to or encountered him to recognize who he is. Then he finally gets the filter in place.]


[Filtered to safe list*]

[This time the transmission is on purpose, focused on his face, and he looks... A little nervous. Definitely unsure of himself, and his voice is softer than usual when he speaks.]

I'm told... I'm told you all knew me, before.

[Another small pause. To anyone who might recognize it as such, he's in a spare room in Mary's apartment.]

I don't remember anything before arriving here a few days ago. I don't want to remember. But if we were friends, then I thought I should at least let you know that I'm here.

[He seems to consider saying something else, but finally just shuts off the feed. He's too confused to put into words what he wants to say.]

[*The list includes Mary Winchester, Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Crowley, Gabriel, Meg, Jo Harvelle, Jinx, Christina Nickson, and Syrena.]

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[seaphonic]

<sub>[When she receives the message she goes to reply, setting her NV on one of the rocks off shore. It's obvious she's in the water like she usually is, although there is no smile present. Castiel had forgotten her.

It was more upsetting than she wanted it to be.]</sub>

I am glad you have come back.

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[ofthursday]

[He checks her name--this is Syrena--and frowns just a little. He doesn't want to remember whatever happened to him, but he does feel bad that he doesn't know his own friends.]

Thank you. Syrena, correct?

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[seaphonic]

Yes. That is my name.

You have forgotten then.

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[ofthursday]

Yes.

I have forgotten everything. I'm told forgetting previous time here is not uncommon, but... I remember nothing before waking up here a few days ago.

[uberboned]

[HERE, HAVE A COMPASSIONATE UNDERSTANDING RESPONSE.]

You've gotta be kidding me.

[ofthursday]

[He checks the name to see this is Gabriel, but other than that... He has no idea who this is but that doesn't sound like a good reaction. He looks a little apologetic.]

I am not. I'm sorry.

[He means it, since he's pretty sure him not having his memory is upsetting people.]

[uberboned]

Not that I blame you or anything. It's a good look for some people.

...Most people go the full face transplant thing route, though, so no one has to deal with all these crazy little emotional hang-ups.

[ofthursday]

[He is... Very confused.]

I don't understand what you mean. Full face transplant route?

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[servingmichael]

[Really. Really. R E A L L Y.]

Well. Look who is back from the dead.

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[ofthursday]

[He checks the name, and this is... Not someone on his list. He messed something up, clearly, and combined with the comment he's more than a little wary when he responds.]

So it seems.

[He's heard about people dying and coming back here, so it hadn't been difficult to guess that might've been what happened to him, considering how he'd looked. But this person doesn't seem to be pleased.]

[Video // Private // Unhackable]

[integrity]

Remember when I told you that speaking to certain people was a bad idea.

[Evenly.]

This counts as a very bad idea.

[Video // Private // Unhackable]

[ofthursday]

Why? Who is this?

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[servingmichael]

[Raphael tilts his head, attempting to local Castiel.]

You don't remember.

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[upstairsbrain]

[ ... This is getting more and more confusing by the day. But, he's glad Cas is back, even if... ]

... You don't remember us. [ He nods, and swallows. ]

I'm Sam. We were friends.

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[ofthursday]

[Something about Sam sparks some level of recognition; he doesn't have any idea who he is, or anything they've done, but he knows somehow that this is someone incredibly important.]

I don't. I'm sorry.

[The name means nothing to him except for the connection to Mary, but he believes him when he says they were friends.]

You are related to Mary, correct?

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[upstairsbrain]

[ Even though he doesn't remember, the reaction, however small, brings a faint smile to his face. Even if his memory is gone, he's alive. That's what matters. ]

It's alright. [ Could be so much worse. ]

Yeah-- I'm her son.

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[momchester]

Hi.

[She's replying from work, because Mary is a hard worker. Yep.]

How are you holding up?

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[ofthursday]

I'm alright.

[In other words, he's lonely and a bit frightened and slightly stir-crazy. He's been playing with the cats to keep himself occupied but now they're both sleeping.]

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[momchester]

Okay.

You'll call me if you need help, right?

[worldhaditsway]

So what are you going to do about not wanting to remember? Just... avoid everyone? Start fresh?

[Concernicus teenage girl is concernicus.]

[ofthursday]

I... I don't know.

[He knows that the logistics aren't going to work. There's no way to avoid people, and he doesn't necessarily want to, and he knows he'll eventually find out more about himself and what happened than he wants to know. Still, maybe for awhile he can have some fake sense of peace.]

It's selfish, but I want to be... I know that if I remember, I am going to be in a situation I don't want to be in.

[So he's running, and he knows it, and he knows it won't last. He just wishes it could.]

[worldhaditsway]

I blew up New Jersey. Trust me, I know. But if I ever end up back there, I can't exactly say "Sorry, I gained perspective in another universe."

Life sucks that way.

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[therightchoice]

[ Oh, Jesse knows how to recognize Castiel alright. ]

You're back.

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[ofthursday]

Yes.

[The name doesn't match anyone on his list, so...]

Who are you?

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[therightchoice]

[ What is going on? ]

Jesse Turner. You don't remember?