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Castiel ([personal profile] ofthursday) wrote in [community profile] sirenspull2012-11-19 10:06 pm

14 [Video]

[The feed crackles on in the Darkness, the usual growls and other eerie noises of night at Siren's Port conspicuously absent in the area. It takes a moment for Castiel's image to become clear on the screen, almost melding out of the dark, expression smoothly neutral except for the faint hint of a smirk that looks completely out of place on his usually serious face.

His eyes are dark in the dim lighting, endless and like staring into an abyss, and even across the electronic feed the sense of wrongness is readily apparent.]


So I find myself here once more.

[His voice is soft, calm, almost uncaring, as if showing up in the Port again is a curiosity and nothing more. Then he smiles.]

It seems a good place to begin.
hostage: (afraid ☣)

[personal profile] hostage 2012-11-22 04:57 am (UTC)(link)
How's this work? You got a list, like Santa Claus?
hostage: (downcast ☣)

[personal profile] hostage 2012-11-22 06:45 am (UTC)(link)
[He swallows, and his voice is tight:]

Okay.

[He doesn't want to die and go to hell, but he knows he doesn't deserve to live, either. So he won't beg. He won't even ask. He's so sure he's one of the damned.]
hostage: (trapped ☣)

[personal profile] hostage 2012-11-23 01:26 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah?

[Beyond nervous. Deeply ashamed and terrified.]
hostage: (disturbed ☣)

[personal profile] hostage 2012-11-23 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah. Of course I do.
hostage: (quiet ☣)

[personal profile] hostage 2012-11-23 01:40 am (UTC)(link)
You know, don't you?

[Murder, that's one of the big ones. Even Jesse knows that. And the stealing. And maybe God doesn't care about the drugs, or maybe he does, but there's that. Greed. That's a deadly sin. And being with Mary. That's in there somewhere, being with someone else's wife.

But it's the murder Jesse's really ashamed about. The innocent people who are dead because of him.]
hostage: (questioning ☣)

[personal profile] hostage 2012-11-23 10:55 am (UTC)(link)
[He can't be understanding that right.]

So... What, you're saying just because I tried, it's all good? No problem?
hostage: (distressed ☣)

[personal profile] hostage 2012-11-28 11:26 am (UTC)(link)
[He's still confused. It just plain doesn't make sense to him. There's no good reason to do a terrible thing. There are terrible things and terrible people that do them. He's faced that truth.]

So I'm... I mean, what happens now?
hostage: (sinking ☣)

[personal profile] hostage 2012-12-03 12:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[What, it's a question directed to him? To Jesse Pinkman: the guy who makes a living destroying lives and shooting innocent people in the face? It makes no sense. Jesse knows people like him don't just get forgiven. Even if they follow the steps. Even if they turn to God. There's still all the blood on his hands. There's no justice in the world if someone like him can just get let off the hook because he's sorry, so why even ask?

But those are thoughts he keeps to himself for now. He's a coward like that. He'll take the out if he can get it.]


I don't suppose you could, uh... just give us a chance? To, uh, you know... do better.

["Us", he says, without even realizing it. "Us", because he's always negotiating for more than his own life.]