Castiel (
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sirenspull2012-11-19 10:06 pm
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[The feed crackles on in the Darkness, the usual growls and other eerie noises of night at Siren's Port conspicuously absent in the area. It takes a moment for Castiel's image to become clear on the screen, almost melding out of the dark, expression smoothly neutral except for the faint hint of a smirk that looks completely out of place on his usually serious face.
His eyes are dark in the dim lighting, endless and like staring into an abyss, and even across the electronic feed the sense of wrongness is readily apparent.]
So I find myself here once more.
[His voice is soft, calm, almost uncaring, as if showing up in the Port again is a curiosity and nothing more. Then he smiles.]
It seems a good place to begin.
His eyes are dark in the dim lighting, endless and like staring into an abyss, and even across the electronic feed the sense of wrongness is readily apparent.]
So I find myself here once more.
[His voice is soft, calm, almost uncaring, as if showing up in the Port again is a curiosity and nothing more. Then he smiles.]
It seems a good place to begin.
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Okay.
[He doesn't want to die and go to hell, but he knows he doesn't deserve to live, either. So he won't beg. He won't even ask. He's so sure he's one of the damned.]
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You seem nervous.
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[Beyond nervous. Deeply ashamed and terrified.]
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[Murder, that's one of the big ones. Even Jesse knows that. And the stealing. And maybe God doesn't care about the drugs, or maybe he does, but there's that. Greed. That's a deadly sin. And being with Mary. That's in there somewhere, being with someone else's wife.
But it's the murder Jesse's really ashamed about. The innocent people who are dead because of him.]
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Not all are perfect beings. Perhaps none.
Intent matters a great deal.
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So... What, you're saying just because I tried, it's all good? No problem?
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Sometimes one does terrible things for good reasons.
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So I'm... I mean, what happens now?
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What do you want to happen?
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But those are thoughts he keeps to himself for now. He's a coward like that. He'll take the out if he can get it.]
I don't suppose you could, uh... just give us a chance? To, uh, you know... do better.
["Us", he says, without even realizing it. "Us", because he's always negotiating for more than his own life.]
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Finally, he nods.]
You and he will have your chances. Make them count.