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sirenspull2012-11-02 12:42 am
motioned) wrote in sirenspull2012-11-02 12:42 am
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forty second dance | video; tiny bit forward dated to midmorning!
[The face on the screen, when first she appears, looks a bit somber.]
I guess the longer you live here, the longer you learn to expect the unexpected, huh? But even then, I didn't think - I mean, Halloween passed, so I thought maybe nothing awful would happen. I've lived here for two years and it still catches me off guard, things like that. I just hope it wasn't anyone with powers behind it. If it was, they should be ashamed of themselves. But that's not what I wanted to talk about, even though I'm really sorry to anyone who saw things that hurt them.
[But then her expression brightens considerably.]
I wanted to talk about, um, being here so long, but it's not as self centered as it sounds, I promise - I guess I just wanted to thank everyone. I think I might have said already, but it's been two years today, and even though the first few months I hated it and just wanted to go home, I think I wouldn't be the same person I am now if I hadn't come here. Not just a different person, but not as good of a person, either. I mean, I've learned so much, and so many people have helped me learn that stuff, both stuff about me and stuff about life, and I wouldn't trade that for the world. Maybe not for any world. I can't help but feel like this is my home. I've met so many people, so many amazing people, people I think of as family who I would never have even known about otherwise. And a lot of them aren't here anymore, some of the best people I've ever met, but I would much rather have known them and lost them than the alternative, you know?
[Her voice gets a bit thick, though it's not in the least unhappy, and she has to pause for a moment to recollect herself.]
So I guess, just - even though horrible things can happen here and things can get very bad, and everything seems dark, I just hope everyone here can find as much light in this island as I've been able to. But I know not everyone's as lucky as me, and I know there are people who have been through things I can't even imagine, so... I'm not the best with technology, but I guess since I'm saying this to everyone, you can all tell what my NV number is, so if everything gets to be too much - there's always someone you can talk to, even if I don't know you.
[Filtered to Fakir]
I need to talk to you.
[Filtered to Gilbert]
Are you busy?
I guess the longer you live here, the longer you learn to expect the unexpected, huh? But even then, I didn't think - I mean, Halloween passed, so I thought maybe nothing awful would happen. I've lived here for two years and it still catches me off guard, things like that. I just hope it wasn't anyone with powers behind it. If it was, they should be ashamed of themselves. But that's not what I wanted to talk about, even though I'm really sorry to anyone who saw things that hurt them.
[But then her expression brightens considerably.]
I wanted to talk about, um, being here so long, but it's not as self centered as it sounds, I promise - I guess I just wanted to thank everyone. I think I might have said already, but it's been two years today, and even though the first few months I hated it and just wanted to go home, I think I wouldn't be the same person I am now if I hadn't come here. Not just a different person, but not as good of a person, either. I mean, I've learned so much, and so many people have helped me learn that stuff, both stuff about me and stuff about life, and I wouldn't trade that for the world. Maybe not for any world. I can't help but feel like this is my home. I've met so many people, so many amazing people, people I think of as family who I would never have even known about otherwise. And a lot of them aren't here anymore, some of the best people I've ever met, but I would much rather have known them and lost them than the alternative, you know?
[Her voice gets a bit thick, though it's not in the least unhappy, and she has to pause for a moment to recollect herself.]
So I guess, just - even though horrible things can happen here and things can get very bad, and everything seems dark, I just hope everyone here can find as much light in this island as I've been able to. But I know not everyone's as lucky as me, and I know there are people who have been through things I can't even imagine, so... I'm not the best with technology, but I guess since I'm saying this to everyone, you can all tell what my NV number is, so if everything gets to be too much - there's always someone you can talk to, even if I don't know you.
[Filtered to Fakir]
I need to talk to you.
[Filtered to Gilbert]
Are you busy?
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[Because when is he ever okay?]
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Right...
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[Picking up more apples...]
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[She picks a few up as well, shining one up against her dress absentmindedly.]
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[ARE YOU SURE...]
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[She grins, offering him the apple.]
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[He takes it and puts it with the others, still resting his hand on it as he turns to look back at her. The next topic has to be handled very delicately.]
And what happens now that he's...ah, told you that?
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I don't know, I kind of, um - started crying and then stopped crying and then ran out because I remembered I said I would meet you out here.
[Skipping the kissing part to avoid giving him a seizure...]
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[He stands up a little straighter.]
You didn't have to - I mean talking to him right now is definitely more important than talking to me!
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[That's right, that means that there was something else. He'd totally forgotten in all the apple-angst.]
What were you going to say before?
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Have you ever thought about, um — adoption? Like, for me and you.
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Ahiru.
What makes you think he can handle this question after all of that.
.........................Cough.]
R...really?
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Back home, he'd been adopted into the Nightray home as a means to an end. He became a noble in order to get close to the one thing that they possessed that he needed. The Raven. The power to protect his master. He'd taken the name and, eventually, he'd become the last heir to the Nightray house. Of course in this world, none of that mattered. The name of 'Nightray' no longer carries with it the connotations of cruelty, betrayal and hatred.
So why does it feel so painful to think about passing it along to her?
Why does she still trust such a pathetic person like me...
He closes his eyes again, but he doesn't cry this time. Both hands move to rest against the counter, one finger resting against one of his ruined apples.]
Of course...it's something that I would want. [He answers quietly; cautiously.]
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If you - I mean, if you don't want to, that's okay. You can say so.
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I...I'd be honored. If you'd let me...
[Though his voice is quiet, there's nothing but certainty in his tone.]
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But... Is something the matter?
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Or the fact that Elliot would probably march right up to him and punch him in the face for having that thought to begin with?
He clears his throat and smiles, shakes his head.]
No, nothing. I'm just a little shocked or...something like that.
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[You know. Become an actual father and not just one on paper.]
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[Sob, why is he making this beautiful moment awkward.
He holds an arm out for her, offering another hug. Today is a day of hugs in lieu of intelligent conversation.]
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