sirenspull | forty second dance | video; tiny bit forward dated to midmorning!

[The face on the screen, when first she appears, looks a bit somber.]

I guess the longer you live here, the longer you learn to expect the unexpected, huh? But even then, I didn't think - I mean, Halloween passed, so I thought maybe nothing awful would happen. I've lived here for two years and it still catches me off guard, things like that. I just hope it wasn't anyone with powers behind it. If it was, they should be ashamed of themselves. But that's not what I wanted to talk about, even though I'm really sorry to anyone who saw things that hurt them.

[But then her expression brightens considerably.]

I wanted to talk about, um, being here so long, but it's not as self centered as it sounds, I promise - I guess I just wanted to thank everyone. I think I might have said already, but it's been two years today, and even though the first few months I hated it and just wanted to go home, I think I wouldn't be the same person I am now if I hadn't come here. Not just a different person, but not as good of a person, either. I mean, I've learned so much, and so many people have helped me learn that stuff, both stuff about me and stuff about life, and I wouldn't trade that for the world. Maybe not for any world. I can't help but feel like this is my home. I've met so many people, so many amazing people, people I think of as family who I would never have even known about otherwise. And a lot of them aren't here anymore, some of the best people I've ever met, but I would much rather have known them and lost them than the alternative, you know?

[Her voice gets a bit thick, though it's not in the least unhappy, and she has to pause for a moment to recollect herself.]

So I guess, just - even though horrible things can happen here and things can get very bad, and everything seems dark, I just hope everyone here can find as much light in this island as I've been able to. But I know not everyone's as lucky as me, and I know there are people who have been through things I can't even imagine, so... I'm not the best with technology, but I guess since I'm saying this to everyone, you can all tell what my NV number is, so if everything gets to be too much - there's always someone you can talk to, even if I don't know you.

[Filtered to Fakir]
I need to talk to you.

[Filtered to Gilbert]
Are you busy?

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yes

Edited 2012-11-03 02:27 (UTC)

That sounds like it could get really burdensome.

nobody should have to be unhappy.

[people and ducks with boundless light in their hearts make less and less sense for every day that passes.]

You're contradicting yourself. Wouldn't shouldering a bunch of random strangers' issues make YOU unhappy?

Actually, you know what? Go ahead. I bet I could find some people with all sorts of problems for you to talk to.

why would helping people make me unhappy? i'm sorry for shoving you by the way

Think of it this way: Every bit of darkness you let in, whether it's from your own problems or from having to deal with someone else's problems, is like a little weight on your heart. Small enough on its own, at least, right?

People deal with it in different ways and have their own limits, but even a girder will snap if you put enough weight on it. You get it?

[she may be sorry, but he's probably not sorry for punching her. though, he will admit in retrospect that it was a dumb idea.]

Edited 2012-11-03 02:57 (UTC)

are you worried about me?

No, just pointing out your idiocy.

Like I said, go right ahead and lend an ear to the entire island. Maybe something useful will actually stick in your brain if you do.

it's not idiocy. helping people is a good thing, whether or not you get it.

[Ahiru's right, he doesn't get it. he'll likely never understand the joy of doing something just to make someone happy, or gift-giving, unless he was giving something malicious in nature.]

[it makes sense then, that the only scenario he would understand is when charity might backfire.]

If you're absolutely certain on that, Ahiru.

Has it really been two years?

i am. yes, two years today. how about you?

It's probably been somewhere around a year for me, unfortunately.

you could always try to look on the bright side, you know.

That would require something bright to look at to begin with, wouldn't it?

[that's partially a challenge, Ahiru. find something positive about Vanitas. go on!]

it's not like you're hopeless, you know.

I never said that. I've got plenty of aspirations.

Edited 2012-11-15 04:37 (UTC)

well yeah see i mean unless they're like bad aspirations then that's bright!

Well, what do you consider a "bad" aspiration?

Edited 2012-11-15 04:40 (UTC)

what is it

You really want to know?

yes but i have a feeling you aren't going to tell me anyways

What do you know, you CAN be taught.

It doesn't concern you anyway.

then why did you bring it up in the first place

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