thirty ninth dance | voice;

[motioned]

I just wanted to let everyone know that I'm all back to normal now. Um, thank you for everyone who was concerned or offered to help. It really does mean a lot.

[Still, despite that good news, her voice doesn't very relieved or happy. It doesn't sound sad, either; it's carefully neutral instead as she moves on.]

That's not really all I wanted to say, though. For anyone who knew Davesprite while he was here, he's gone home. He was, um, the orange boy with the wings. The timing seems pretty bad, I know, but I'm sure he wasn't in the hunt, so nobody should worry about that. I called and it kept ringing, so... For what it's worth, though, I'm sorry to all the friends he had here.

I guess that's all I really had to say.

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private;

[whitefeathered]

What if your fate was meant to be good all along and you went and changed it, never realizing it? You're promised to change fate, and that sounds good, but what if it was something that shouldn't be touched?

. . . I guess the way someone explained it to me was the jewel took the deepest desire of your heart and made it possible. But somewhere in the middle of all that, it twists, because you can't control fate. It will always twist somewhere you don't expect.

Back at home, being able to do something about this person could have been a good thing. My father has spent years of his life trying to catch him and make him pay for his crimes. It meant I didn't get to see him much. I was angry -- so angry. So I had this wish.

I couldn't know I'd like the power that much -- or how far it would go. But still . . . it's my fault for having the wish in the first place. For being that naive. For not realizing what I could do.

[Her nose wrinkles sharply, but the derisiveness is aimed at the thought of making another wish, not Ahiru.]

You think after all that I'd go make another wish?

private;

[motioned]

I guess it would be different if your fate was a good one, but I know there are times it's should be changed. No, that it needs to be changed. And you can control it, too. We decide our own fate.

I don't think it's wrong to have a wish to help your father. Wanting to see him again... That's natural. And there was no reason for you to think that it would have turned out the way it did. Trying to do the right thing is never naive.

[She shakes her head quickly.]

I didn't mean to imply you'd make a mistake like that! But... I know he can make people think contracting is a good idea really easily, even when it's a bad idea.

private;

[whitefeathered]

I guess I don't believe that -- that fate can be controlled. Because if everyone has free will and everyone's trying to just live and make their own choices . . . there are things you're never going to be able to predict that's going to affect you. You can only make your own choices and hope you don't really mess up.

I really messed up. I could be okay with that if . . . it wasn't hurting everyone else. If I didn't keep messing up.

Kaito doesn't want me to believe that either -- that I messed up. But either way, it's not going to change what's going on. I can't keep hurting people.

private;

[motioned]

I'm sorry, but I don't think that's true. Fate is something we decide for ourselves... We all have the power to choose our own free will. And what you just said about making your own choices, that's part of free will too.

Well, do you know a way to stop yourself from changing? I still don't think it's your fault, but you're right that it's important to end it somehow.