† THREE [voice] - backdated to about the 16th.

[upstairsbrain]

[ Well, he's taken some time to mull over what Magento told him about his time in the Port: the time he doesn't remember. And thinking it over, trying to reason it out, searching for a shred of memory to explain why he'd done it... nothing like that had worked. So, finally, the younger Winchester comes over the feed, his voice almost jerky, mechanical. To many, it may seem like he's just tired, but to those who know him well... ]

Sorry about being M.I.A. If anyone needs me, I'll be around. I'm taking a sort of--

[ He trails off, and then clears his throat. ]

... Anyway. I'll be back soon.

[Private to Dean Winchester:]
I'm not going to be at home for a few days. Don't tell Mom, alright? I don't want her to worry.

[Private to Castiel:]
Can we talk? In person?

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[video/private]

[failedparenting]

[No. Shit. Not this again.]

Why're you skipping off now?

voice; private;

[upstairsbrain]

I just need some space.

[ No, that's not right. Because somewhere, he remembers what Magneto said; that the other Sam cut himself off from everyone when everything happened... ]

Some time. To think.

video; private; look at him in the eye soldier B|

[failedparenting]

You can't.

[John's got his "serious Dad" face on, you better listen.]

You did it last time. You're not doing that to your mother again.

voice; private; CAN'T, won't D:

[upstairsbrain]

That's why--

[ No, not going to talk about it. Not here, not now. ]

I'm just going out for a few hours. She'll be fine.

[ Lies. He did tell Dean to keep an eye out for her, but... he can't face her right now. ]

Re: voice; private; worst son

[failedparenting]

Bullshit.

This is not time to run away, she's not herself and this is just what she doesn't need.

[Then, in an angrily commanding voice Sam's heard hundreds of times:]

Look at me, Sam.

voice; private; daddy no ))):

[upstairsbrain]

I can't.

[ His voice breaks slightly, but he doesn't give in. He'll suffer the consequences later, as he deserves. But for now, he can't face his parents, whether in person, or over the feed. ]

I'm sorry. I can't. Not right now.

voice; private; daddy will be really really sad about it later

[failedparenting]

What the hell is wrong with you?

[Okay, he gives up on that. But if Sam could see his father right now...]

You always do this. Fucking cut and run when we need you.

voice; private; sammy will be really really sad about it now

[upstairsbrain]

[ If his father could see Sam right now. Don't worry, John, your son feels all the necessary shame. ]

I'll be back. [ He swallows, hard. ] When I can. Soon.