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[Mary looks... well, alive, which is a bonus, but also frazzled and exhausted, with pale skin, dark circles under her eyes, lips chapped, hair falling out of her ponytail.

But more than that, she looks haunted.]

I'm back. I'm alive. [Her lips press together in a thin line. She bows her head and talks to her knees.] No thanks to those monsters.

I don't know if anyone else made it out... there were no- [sniffing hard to avoid tearing up.] -shelters. Nothing Darkness proofed. [Head still bowed tightly.] I don't know if any of those people I fought with made it out alive, but if they didn't, I'm going to tell you all right now.

[She finally looks up, eyes welling now with tears she refuses to cry.]

They hunted us. They bound us, put collars on us, they put us in cages. They chased us and hunted us down like we were fucking dogs and we couldn't-

[she claps a hand over her mouth, breathing hard to rein in her emotions. When she opens her eyes again, there's something chilling and deadened in her eyes.]

When I died at home- the first time, before I came here... it was a demon. A demon pinned me to the ceiling and burned me alive in my baby's nursery, and I didn't feel as violated as I did those two days. In that cage. [She shakes her head intently, looking away.] Those monsters kidnapped children. They wanted to see every one of us die like dumb fucking animals.

I wonder what would happen if I prayed for them. [There's a weird look in her eyes. Something you wouldn't leave your children alone with.] It's the Christian thing to do.

Would I get their souls into Heaven, or their heads on a plate?

[With a last ugly look at the NV, she turns the ~~public~~ feed off.]

[Private to Jinx]

I found a plus one.

[Private to the angels]

Did you hear my prayer? [The one she whispered as she lay dying.] Please, tell me none of you- tell me you didn't go there. Please.

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I will. Thanks.

Maybe we can talk about doing our sessions again.

[Sparring, drinking beer, and sometimes a whole lot of nothing. Good times.]

[He grins.] I'd like that; I've missed them.

You just let me know when you're up for it.

[yeah, good thing too cus when he got to her floor he went right for her door, hand on the knob, maybe should knock, so he does, but while he's turning the knob too. He's peeking in at first, then slips into her apartment and latches his arms around her with a Mmmm sound. Pleased to be able to hug her again.]

[Seriously, if she had taken any longer to get back he would have started to panic that she wasn't going to COME back. Yes, it's a tight hug. Hopefully not hurting her, but she wanted to give her a proper welcome back]

Iknewyou'dbeback!

[Well damn, let's hope it doesn't hurt him when she tightens her arms around him impossibly and then suddenly snaps a little and grips him as hard as she can and whispers into his hair.]

I'll always come back. I promise.

[Nothing can hurt him!! or so he would say, but he does cling a bit hard into the hug, cus he thinks she needs up, but he kind of needs it as well. It was a hard Hug coming from Mary, and yes, a bit too tight, but he would put up with it]

I kept saying you would. I wasn't worried. I kept saying it, that you'd be back.

I can't, either. People hunting other people should never be allowed in any place or time. This is a travesty, something that I couldn't even believe happened, when I first heard of it.

Believe it.

[She looks utterly haunted.]

[He's so awkward with this emotional stuff. Is he supposed to ask if she's okay? He already knows she's not okay.]

...When this is done, maybe you'll sleep better at night.

[She realizes after a second that she's hugging too tight and loosens up but omg, listen, this hug is the best thing ever. Tiny arms around her neck are the exact thing she needed right now.]

Don't worry, I'm not going anywhere.

[Then she adjusts her grip and picks him up for a SPINNY HUG. Prepare to be spun.]

Maybe the Core will send me to Candyland and buy me a magical pony.

...I'm sorry, that was rude.

Candy Land? [He does not understand your pop references. But anyway.]

No, it's fine. Politeness is not something one should be worried about in a time like this.

Okay.

[She rubs her arms and hugs herself nervously.]

They'll find a way to suppress it. They'll try to shut us up. They want us to understand that we're just bugs to them.

[She can still hear that foul man's voice in her head.]

Yeah, don't trust him in the apartment alone so I kept him close during all the crap. He really missed you so I'm bringin' him along.

[There, that wasn't so painful, not that he minded. She could hug him till he broke and it would be alright. Gee... he's a bit attached to Mary.]

[Arms wrapped around her he hugged her tightly, not intending to let go till either Dean showed up or she put him down, so it was all good to him.]

[Even better as they spun. He held on tightly, actually chuckling near her ear as she did it. Laughing he said] I'm gonna hold you to that.

[Dean lets Ben shoot ahead of him and run down the stairs and up the hall to his mom's room because this was safe ground as far as he was concerned. Being privy to the entire conversation between the two of them helped too.

He knows his mom needs to see Ben just about as bad as he needs to see his mom. He comes around the corner during their spin hug.] I remember those. [He got them a lot when he was young. Dean holds up the bag of Iams.] Now the rats can eat.

Speakin' of rats. Hey, Ben, she has pizza in there. [He wanted some time to hug his mom too.]

[The spin hug makes her laugh, too, and it's just such a perfect moment until Dean shows up- and then it's something strained, but in a beautifully broken way that's about love and pain and remembering to act like she's still the same person she was before he walked into the room.]

Oh, hey. [A forced smile. She puts Ben down and scoots him off to the kitchen with a breathy little chuckle.] Yeah, why don't you go on and pick one out that you like. Even put some more pepperoni on it.

[Once he's off, Mary takes a second to meet Dean's eyes. Her eyes are a little wet, but it's real. There's more honesty in her lost, sad look than in trying to smile for Ben's sake.]

Dean.

They can try. But they will never succeed. We won't let them get away with this, and they will see that these bugs have stingers.

You guys will have to do all the stinging for me.

[Mary herself packs quite the punch, but she doesn't feel like it now. She feels (and looks) like a light wind would knock her over.]

Um, with all due respect, can I be in touch with you later? I can't right now.

[He nods.] When you can. Don't rush, we're not going anywhere right now. I hope you feel better, soon.

Home hurt me too. I'm used to it.

Thank you. I hope so.

But what makes this better?

[She used to be so sure. This is life, the only life she'll ever get. Surely it's worth it.

She's not sure any more.]

[Oh he knows. Jesus Christ, how he knows. He knows it so intimately that there are still nights (on the tail ends of horrible, bloody days) he'll wake up trying not to scream.

If John could she the images that keep haunting her, he'd have a hard time of it too. They're too close to his for comfort.

And slowly, as she bandages his shaking hand with her own, it dawns on him what had been bothering him about Mary's actions since the garage (besides the obvious, of course). It's like looking in a gaunt, shellshocked mirror, and he understands.]

Oh Mar...[Gently, he pulls her close to him and strokes her hair. She used to do this for him when it got bad.] Just breathe deep, okay? You're safe now.

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I have her. [It's so simple, really. And not just her, but a slew of people who like him, who want to be around him. What he has back home is an endless cycle of watching his brothers murder each other or watching the planet fall apart.

Here, he has a chance to actually be happy and stop pretending that he is. Here, he has the chance to have a home, because he knows his real home doesn't want him anymore.]

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