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Where's the Core?

[Mary looks... balanced. And healthy. And happy. And not tense or brittle or on the edge of making horrible life choices. Of course not. No.]

I mean, how do we get to it? Someone has to know. It's probably SERO, at least.

[She tensely lights up a cigarette and sneaks in a short puff, not stopping too long between breaths.]

I've heard things about it being sentient, or- or maybe even alive. I have to know. Doesn't everybody?

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Why not? Maybe nobody's ever tried to talk to it. Maybe people have been trying to control it or experiment on it, but it's lonely.

If it was kind, or wanted us to be happy, it wouldn't have brought most of us here in the first place.

[And she can think of so many people it wouldn't have taken away.]

What would you say to it?

...I would ask it why. For all we know, this thing is an alien who doesn't understand the impact it's having. Everything it's doing says "lonely" to me. Bringing new friends here. Making sure they never leave.

Maybe I'd ask it what it wants.

It doesn't make sure they never leave.

Do you really think it's going to answer you? I've heard it's more like a machine, kind of. Even if it could understand you and care about what you were saying, do you think it could answer?

I don't know. I just want to try. We might need a translator.

Is that chance really worth the risk? I mean, why now? What's making it important to do it now?

I'm just... tired. I've finally been through enough. I'm sick of this and I want to ask it why, or what it thinks it's doing, or what- what it wants through all this.

I don't think there's anyone here who's not tired of it, but that doesn't mean we're all lining up to do something dangerous because of it.

[But that sounds a bit harsher than she'd like, so she pauses and tries again.]

I just - nobody wants anything bad to happen to you, you know?

-I know.

[Any offense she might have taken is thoroughly chilled by that comment.]

Everyone's tired of it. But when was the last time someone stood up and did something? I can't just sit and wish things were better.

[There's a pause there, and then - it's strange. It's hardly rare for her to feel frustration about the things that happen here. There are companies that enslave people. There are monsters that roam the streets at night, killing everything in sight; not only that, but monsters in the form of people here. Murderers. Liars. But she can't recall the last time she's been irritated by someone as kind as she knows Mary is. There was that disagreement months ago, of course, but it doesn't compare to the sudden wave of anger that comes over her.

It's not fair of Ahiru to direct it like this, and somewhere deep down she does recognize. Mary doesn't realize she patrols the streets every night to try and save people from the Darkness, risking her own life. She doesn't know that she all but sold her own soul for the power to better make the people here happy. She doesn't know that she's still reeling from losing Christina just weeks before. Most of all, Mary doesn't know that she feels like she's been slipping on uneven ground since the day she arrived here, and reaching out to towards people who eventually vanish to try and steady herself. And really, while Mary's remark was regarding the Core, she's taking it in a broader sense. So, it's not fair, this sudden feeling that comes over her.

But this emotion, as anger usually does, ignores all of that. All she can see is herself, a girl who's been trying for so long to make everything better for people, and Mary, who's asking her when somebody last did something. Upset, not to mention juvenile, she speaks, louder than she intends.]

Oh, I didn't realize the rest of us weren't trying hard enough!

[And then, impassioned, she ends the connection abruptly. She'll apologize later, of course, but right now she can't see beyond her own overreaction.]

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